just sad

i'm just sad. 

feels like i'm invisible.

maybe i am, but

who am i anyway.

that happens again...

...what happened back then in my internship around 2003, happened again.


not sure. but..feels similar to that one.

but who am i?

i'm just ... nothing.

who am i.

i'm just nobody.

(but hey, therefor i'm perfect since Nobody IS perfect 😜)

huh.

lost of love from Nobody.

reflection

it was just a casual chitchat
and suddenly all went wrong
i didn't what my fault was
i never put myself too high
so that i'd appologize when i make mistakes
but when someone treated me like shite
....

i sounds familiar

years ago when i was on internship. there was someone who always helped me. doing this and that. and i was thankful coz i couldnt handle crowds and mass as good as that guy.

and his friend was maaaaddd at me. bcoz of her friend chose to help me.

i thought what the hell. we were on the same team. why she mad at me?

and i told her if she had a problem with that, she should tell him herself, not to me. she should tell him herself right in front his face. not to me as if she blamed me.

that, really made me mad. and as usual. i cry when i'm mad.

nothing

when someone you care about texted you "i don't care" well you know that's the right moment to stop care too.

why should that goes one way? even if that person really don't care, she don't need to say that right in front your face. it feels like someone throws a thick book right on your face. bitter. painful.

should she had the problem with anyone else, she better fixed that without dragging me in. i am not an owl! 

yes. i. am. mad.

Knock Knock...

I probably asked my friends weird question in the middle of the nite. That's the only way I can find out.....if there's anyhing wrong....

And before I know the answers, I keep wondering..feeling..hoping that i didnt hurt anyone.

This is insane. Is this whole thing is just a dream?

The Listeners

I'm not talking about the series (not even close! 😅) to it has similar title..

Being in Mom circle is confusing. I believe they are sweet n nice, but...they're too loud sometimes 😅

They're as confused as I am. I guess.

Why are you so quiet?
I don't like chit chat. I listen.

Why are you always busy?
If I don't create anything, I'm dead.

Why you seems ignorance n careless with people around you?
Ooh??  Tell me about being ignorance 😑

The point is...this is pointless. Just another aah-moment 😛

Cheers from the east 💛